Well maybe I just don't know what I want!

• i dislike my phone
  • it’s an iphone 12.
  • its battery is really bad.
  • i would love a physical keyboard?
• i want a phone that doesn’t distract me
  • no youtube
  • youtube makes me upset
  • i use my phone in bed too much
• i want to be encouraged to use other devices
  • i have an ipod, but why would i use it if i have airpods and an iphone
  • i want a nicer camera
• i’m a developer, i want to use matrix, i think.
• i don’t have money to waste on buying another phone.
• i’m dissociative, i’m plural. i can’t hold myself to a strict self-imposed rule, i’ll get overruled, i’ll have someone irresponsible front, i’ll have someone who doesn’t care, etc. i can’t, for example, put my phone in greyscale, because someone else will front, turn it off, i’ll come back and not realise.

why a dumbphone doesn’t work for me

• i have friends in other countries. i can’t message them on SMS without paying a lot, neither for calling.
• i’m ideologically opposed to SMS. we have the internet, just use the internet. use matrix.

why an android dumbphone doesn’t work for me

• well if it’s android, why wouldn’t i just use my phone
• is it really going to stop me from using my phone for so long?

what do i use my phone for

• 70% talk with friends (matrix, discord)
• 20% youtube
• 10% music, social media (wafrn only), reading, etc

what do i want to use my phone for

• 100% talk with friends

solution

• i need a new phone, at some point, but i don’t have money.
• until then:
  • block youtube website
  • block wafrn
  • perhaps find a way to make sable more adhd-friendly (e.g. block large rooms out of ‘work hours’)
  • remove/hide apps that i can reasonably move to a second-device. e.g. notesapp -> book.
  • NO MUSIC?? i have an ipod. i have to use it.
  • warm up to the idea of maybe removing talk-with-friends stuff.
    • i tend to like, scroll large rooms?
  • i want a watch again
    • i had a watch but it was giving me bad skin reactions. so i gotta get a watch that works.
• when i get a new phone, it’s probably going to be a smartphone with a keyboard. for example the Clicks Communicator.